All I wanted to do was get out of the house (all i want to do is get out of this house)...get some air, find some distraction. I figured out a way to have my car door at least keep itself closed halfway so it hopefully wont fly open, and then I was going to put some gas in it. When I pulled out of the garage and tried to shut the door...it stopped and went back up. I got out and looked at it and a couple of the wheels were out of the tracks and a piece was bent pretty badly. I pulled my car back in so it wasn't in the alley and spent about 20 minutes trying to fix it with all sorts of tools and pounding. I tried shutting it again and more went wrong. Loud banging, scratching, things falling apart. The only thing I could do was pull it down manually, which was nearly impossible. I had to push, pull, adjust, align and pull some more. I finally got it closed, but not without jamming it with pieces of wood to keep the top from falling into the garage. I was probably out there for about an hour. I came back in the house, more defeated than when I left. What can I do? I wish we all had one chance to go back in time. 6 months...a year. This isn't a rehearsal, but wouldn't it be nice if it was? If one more thing malfunctions or gets in my way, Im just leaving.
The trees creak with arthritic arms.
Brittle in their powdered bark.
Blue moon light, I can't cry right, but I miss you tonight.
Everything here's about to break.
I'm one inch from more than I can take,
and it's beautiful and sad, but it's all that I have.
So tonight, I'll stay inside.
There are things that I'd like to try with you, but I stay inside.
tomorrow is feb and then jan cant touch you.
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